Change

Change - this word can bring about many different emotions. I was never one for change, except when I was saved, God changed me radically and I was grateful. The thing I think I lost sight of for the last 2 1/2 years was that when I prayed for God to change me from glory to glory, I was only looking for the good, fairly easy changes, not to say there were not hard things the last 13 years, there were - but nothing like what I experienced with the loss of my family. That changed my whole life. I had been grieving for what seemed like forever and couldn't seem to get passed that. I loved God through it all, but I allowed the enemy to use things to come between myself and my friends and my church, I was ready to walk away from it all and start over, but you see that would have been easy. What I mean by that is that I wouldn't have had to take responsibility for my part in it all. It was all my responsibility, and that is the way I look at it, I had to forgive what was real and what I perceived to be real and let it go, and let God have control. I see how God worked out many things in me during this time. I am no longer dependent upon others, but dependent upon Him, that is where I should have been all along. Totally dependent upon Him, He is the answer to every question, every need that I have. I am so excited by what God is doing, I feel a stirring, I hear His voice and I long to be in His presence, to dwell in His presence. I thank God for this time in my life where I have the opportunity to worship and praise Him in my home, at different times during the day to hear His voice and to read His word. I am joyful, I am grateful and I am stirred up because I serve the living God, my savior, my healer, my provider, the lover of my soul. He is my all in all, His love for me is greater than I can imagine. I am not alone, through the changes good and bad, I am not alone and if I will just allow Him, He will lead me and guide me in His perfect way and His perfect will for my life will be accomplished as I let Him have control. Lord Jesus, have your way in me, I am desperate for you, Lord in Proverbs 16:3 your word says "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed, this is my prayer, that all I do will be done unto you, for you and by you and all will glorify your name, I love you Lord and I thank you for the trials and tribulations, for bringing me through and for never leaving me or forsaking me.