Church

Church today was awesome, for me it started last night, I had some time alone at home and I was able to worship the Lord in a wonderful way, singing in the Spirit, but with words that were flowing out of the center of my being, it was an awesome experience and it spoke of my total surrender to God and desiring Him and being Desperate for Him. I felt alive and at peace, isn't it amazing how reading, praying and worshipping God does that? How do we get so easily side-tracked? Well I would have been happy there, but God wants more, I wanted to go to prayer but of course I overslept, however, I was able to read His word and pray, when I finally got to church I was ready to enter in, and I did. What blesses me so much is I am not hindered anymore by what anyone thinks about my praise and worship unto God, I found this to be true the last month or so, freedom in God to do this, it is my heart, the words to the songs speak to me, I don't just sing, I am thinking about what the words mean and how much I love my Lord I am singing to, it has always been that way, but it is different now, I am not questioning why, just loving it and grateful to God for it. I wrote yesterday, Jesus lover of my soul, that was one of the songs today at church during worship, all I could do was cry and smile and love Him with my worship, it was like God chose that song for me today, hand picked it for me, I am sure he did for myself and a dozen others, I only hope they all were as blessed as I was.
I have found through the last 2 years that my walk is my walk, it is not dependent upon others, I depended too much on others, God wanted Susan to want Him, no matter who or what anyone else was doing, or are doing now. I know now that He is taking me to a higher place in Him, a place that I have only begun to experience and a place where I want to dwell, in His presence at His feet, loving Him with all that is within me. Where do I go from here? God only knows, but I am looking forward to the journey and blessed He chose me to go along.