RESTORATION, REFLECTION, REWARDS

I have to start off my thoughts by saying God is a God of Restoration and I am thankful. I was so blessed by the church retreat this past weekend. Everything within me knew I had to be there and a dear friend knew I was going to be even without a spoken word from me in that regard. That knowing by her ministered to me, the fact someone still recogninzed my desire, my want to and knew me so well that I would go- despite things that could prevent me from me going. God made a way and worked it all out and I am grateful He did!!!!
I also had a word a couple of weeks ago that rang true, however I wasn't quite sure the wording was right, you know what I mean. I thought to myself, Oh God would not have had me in a dark place, He would not have had me off by myself for a season. I was under the impression that God and I worked this out together, that I chose this as a result of all the loss suffered the last few years. Although I knew and have testified that God had turned things into good, I really did not think God had set things in motion, that He had a plan to bring me to my knees, to the depths of despair, hurting and feeling betrayed, however God did have such a plan. Don't misunderstand me, I don't think God removed people I loved from my life to bring me closer to Him, but He used those situations to do just that. I did not surprise God by my reactions to situations, with the grief or with "betrayal so to speak" of my friends, family, and church. God created me, before I was formed in my mothers womb, He knew me, I am a unique sometimes very trying individual and He knew my thoughts, intentions - everything. Nothing is hidden from God, never has been. God brought me out of and through so much the last 15 years and I am blessed He did. But God wants more of me, He requires more out of me, more than I was giving, He wants a pure heart, refined, beating for Him and His purposes, that I am sad to say had been lacking to a degree. I was caught up in the trials of the world and my loved ones, I was complacent and going through the motions, content - even though I was grateful, the passion for God the reality of God had diminished. Thank God for the Triple Z plan - I had a friend tell me tonight that God had given him a hard word concerning me just a few days before my father passed away, I was never told about that word until tonight and only in part. It was a hard word, but I praised God tonight for it, God loved me enough to give that word to someone who loved and cared about me,someone who would pray and lift me up despite my attitude and actions. God knows all and how humbled I am that He does. Thank God, Thank God!!!
That was only a part of the wonder of God I experienced tonight, any doubt I have had these last few months has been put to rest, God blessed me tonight and read my mail again, only God and I knew some feelings that were trying to rise up again when the estate lawyer would call, feelings I thought had been put to rest, however as I cry out to God to refine me, He will do just that, situations will be dealt with they are not pleasing to God and He doesn't just want lip service. These wayward feelings tonight were covered by the blood, I have a transformed mind, right thinking, the mind of Christ - V is not for Vendetta - It stands for Victory in Jesus!!!! GLORY TO GOD - I LOVE YOU LORD - R. U. N. Revival?!!!!!!

GLORY TO GOD - HE IS AMAZING

Tonight I went early to pray before the official prayer time started. I wanted to seek the Lord and draw nearer to Him - He gave me these verses:

John 12:35-36
35 Jesus replied, "My light will shine out for you just a little while longer. Walk in it while you can, so you will not stumble when the darkness falls. If you walk in the darkness, you cannot see where you are going. 36 Believe in the light while there is still time; then you will become children of the light." After saying these things, Jesus went away and was hidden from them.

John 12:44-50
44 Jesus shouted to the crowds, "If you trust me, you are really trusting God who sent me. 45 For when you see me, you are seeing the one who sent me. 46 I have come as a light to shine in this dark world, so that all who put their trust in me will no longer remain in the darkness. 47 If anyone hears me and doesn't obey me, I am not his judge--for I have come to save the world and not to judge it. 48 But all who reject me and my message will be judged at the day of judgment by the truth I have spoken. 49 I don't speak on my own authority. The Father who sent me gave me his own instructions as to what I should say. 50 And I know his instructions lead to eternal life; so I say whatever the Father tells me to say!"

The Lords presence was so strong and prior to prayer He gave me this word:

The Lord said- See yourself for what you are outside of me, repent and then see yourself IN ME, free, loved, healed - the light in dark places - only IN ME can my purpose be accomplished through you - STAY IN ME - I long for you to be there always, I wait patiently for you, COME!

God desires for us to repent of our sins - He longs for us to fellowship with Him- we are to be His hands, feet, ears,and even mouth on this earth - we may be the only Jesus that some people see - we are His light when we choose to walk with Him and obey Him. I love Him with a whole heart and I am crying out for Him to purify my heart, to refine me, I want all that is not God to be driven out and I want once again live my life for Him without reservation, with excitement, expectancy, and joy. I want to be in tune to people and show His love and compassion for them, they may need only a smile, hug, or word of encouragement - I need to be ready to be called into service by my maker, who with such love molded me into what I am and will be. I LOVE YOU JESUS - R U N REVIVAL?!!!!!